xmas time.

visuddha-sattvaya yathartha-vadine
dvijasya seva-nirataya mantrine
datre yatha-sakti subhakta-manase
radha-pada-dhyana-paraya sobhane

hari-padabja-madhupa-
mano-bhutaya manase
radha-pada-sudhasvada-
saline vaisnavaya ca

dadyat stotram maha-punyam
hari-bhakti-prasadhanam
janmantaram na tasyasti
radha-Krishna-padarthinah

O beautiful one, a person who gives this very sacred prayer, which gives Krishna-bhakti, to one situated in the mode of pure goodness, to one who speaks the truth, to one who chants sacred mantras, to one who gives charity as far as he is able, to one whose heart is devoted to the Lord, to one who meditates on Sri Radha's feet, to one whose mind is a bumblebee at the lotus flower of Lord Hari's feet, to one who is thoughtful, to one who tastes the nectar at Sri Radha's feet, or to one who is a Vaisnava, attains Sri Sri Radha-Krishna's feet. He does not take birth again.

from: Struti phala

something beautiful

muda gopendrasyatmaja bhuja parisranga nidhaye
sphurad gopirvrndair yam iha bhagavatam pranayibhih
bhajadbhistair bhaktyas vamabhilasitam praptam acirad
yamitire gopisvaram anudinam tah kila bhaje

"I daily worship Gopisvara Mahadeva, who is situated on the bank of Yamuna. That very Gopisvara was worshipped with deep devotion by the gopis, and he quickly fulfilled their desire to attain a supremely precious jewel in the form of the embrace of the son of Nanda Maharaja Krsna"


vrndavanavani-pate! jaya soma soma-maule
sanaka-sanandana-sanatana-naradedya
gopisvara! vraja-vilasi-yuganghri-padme
prema prayaccha nirupadhi namo namas te

(Sankalpa-kalpadruma 103)

"O Gatekeeper of Vrndavana! O Soma, all glories to you! O you whose forehead is decorated with the moon, and who is worshipable by the sages headed by Sanaka, Sanandana, Sanatana and Narada! O Gopisvara! Desiring that you bestow upon me prema for the lotus feet of Sri Sri Radha-Madhava, who perform joyous pastimes in Vraja-dhama, I offer obeisances unto you time and again."

Oh Lord! I know that You are the dear most friend of the fallen souls.

i know that im not the best devotee of krsna in the world.
i might not chant millions of rounds or even one a day.
one thing i try to do is to keep sri guru,sri gauranga and sri sri radha-krishna in my mind everyday.

Sri Radha Krsna Pada Kamale Mana
Bhaktivinoda Thakura

(1)
sri-radha-krsna-pada-kamale mana
kemone lobhibe carama sarana

(2)
cirodina koriya o-carana as
ache he basiya e adhama das

(3)
he radhe, he krsna-candra bhakta-pran
pamare jugala-bhakti koro' dan

(4)
bhakti-hina boli' na koro' upeksa
murkha-jane deho' jnana-susiksa

(5)
bisaya pipasa-prapidita dase
deho' adhikar jugala-bilase

(6)
cancala-jibana-srota pravahiya,
kaler sagare dhay
gelo je dibas,na asibe ar,
ebe krsna ki upay

(7)
tumi patita-janer bandhu
jani he tomare natha
tumi to' koruna-jalasindhu

(8)
ami bhagya-hina,ati arvacina,
na jani bhakati-lesa
nija-gune natha,koro' atmasat,
ghucaiya bhava-klesa

(9)
siddha-deha diya,brndabana-majhe,
sevamrta koro' dana
piyaiya prema,matta kori' more,
suno nija guna-gana

(10)
jugala-sevay,sri-rasa-mandale
niyukta koro' amay
lalita sakhir,ayogya kinkori,
binoda dhoriche pay

1) Oh mind, tell me how I can possibly attain ultimate refuge at the lotus feet of Sri Radha-Krsna?

2) This most fallen servant has been living for a very long time being desirous of those lotus feet.

3) Oh Radhe, Oh Krsna-candra, the very life of Your devotees! Please give devotion unto Yourselves in charity to this fallen sinner.

4) Please do not neglect me because I am devoid of devotion. Therefore kindly give Your most auspicious instructions to this fool.

5) Your servant is very much diseased with the thirst for material sense gratification, so he's asking You to kindly give him the capacity to assist in Your divine conjugal pastimes.

6) This flickering life is slowly drifting away, flowing onward into the ocean of time. So many days have gone by; more will not come, so now I am wondering what is the means to get You dear Lord Krsna!

7) Oh Lord! I know that You are the dear most friend of the fallen souls. Indeed You are a veritable ocean of compassion.

8) I am most unfortunate, backward and inexperienced, for I do not understand even a tiny fraction of devotion. But by virtue of Your own good qualities, oh Lord, make me Your very own beloved and thus put an end to all of my worldly afflictions.

9) Giving me a spiritual body within the transcendental realm of Vrndavana, bestow upon me the nectar of Your service. Thus I will become madly intoxicated with pure love by drinking the nectar of such service. Just hear this song about Your own divine qualities.

10) Please engage me in rendering confidential services within the circle of the divine Rasa-mandala. Thus Bhaktivinoda, the unworthy maidservant of Sri Lalita Sakhi, is catching hold of Your feet under her guidance.

Please give me the protection of your hands

This is from Adi Sankaracharya's
Lakshmi Nrsimha Karavalamba Stotra
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Samasra Vrukshamagha bheeja manantha karma,
Sakha satham karana pathramananga pushpam,
Aroohasya dukha phalitham pathatho dayalo,
Lakshmi Nrsimha Mama Dehi Karavalambam. 6

Oh Great God Lakshmi Nrsimha,
I have climbed the tree of worldly life,
Which grew from the seed of great sin,
Which has hundreds of branches of past karmas,
Which has leaves which are parts of my body,
Which has flowers which are the result of Venus,
And which has fruits called sorrow,
But I am falling down from it fast and so,
Please give me the protection of your hands.
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oh yeah! jay sri radhe radhe radhe!!!

sri krsna janmastami ki-JAY!!!!

party hard my dear vaisnava friends!!!

krsnaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!

i have once again seen dreams of the local temple's sri sri gaura-nitai deitys.
maybe someday i will get their darshan....

'gaurāńga' bolite habe pulaka-śarīra
'hari hari' bolite nayane ba' be nīra

āra kabe nitāi-cānder koruṇā hoibe
saḿsāra-bāsanā mora kabe tuccha ha'be

When will that opportune moment come to us when there will be shivering of the body as soon as we chant Lord Gauranga's name? While chanting Hare Krsna, when will there be tears in the eyes?

When will I obtain the mercy of Lord Nityanandacandra? When, by His mercy will the desire for material enjoyment become very insignificant?

Please have mercy upon me, Radhe!

Vrndavana Vilasini Radhe Radhe

(1)

vṛndāvana-vilāsinī, rādhe, rādhe

rādhe, rādhe, rādhe, rādhe

vṛndāvana-vilāsinī, rādhe, rādhe

(2)

vṛṣabhānu-nandinī, rādhe, rādhe

govindānandinī, rādhe, rādhe

kānu-mana-mohinī, rādhe, rādhe

aṣṭa-sakhīra śiromaṇi, rādhe, rādhe

(3)

parama-karuṇāmayī, rādhe, rādhe

prema-bhakti-pradāyinī, rādhe, rādhe

(4)

ei bāra more dayā kara, rādhe, rādhe

aparādha kṣamā kara, rādhe, rādhe

sevā adhikāra diyo, rādhe, rādhe

tomāra kāńgāla tomāya ḍāke, rādhe, rādhe

1) All Glories to Radhe! The Queen of Vrndavana!

2) The Daughter of Vrsabhanu, Radhe! The pleasure of Govinda, Radhe! The one who enchants the mind of Kanha (Krsna), Radhe! The jewel of the eight sakhis, Radhe!

3) The most compassionate, Radhe! The one who can prema-bhakti, Radhe!

4) Please have mercy upon me, Radhe! Please forgive my offenses, Radhe! Please give me the opportunity to serve, Radhe! I am Your servant calling You, Radhe!

Parama Karuna Pahu Dui Jana

(1)
parama koruṇa, pahū dui jana
nitāi gauracandra
saba avatāra-sāra śiromaṇi
kevala ānanda-kanda

(2)
bhajo bhajo bhāi, caitanya nitāi
sudṛḍha biśwāsa kori
viṣaya chāḍiyā, se rase majiyā,
mukhe bolo hari hari

(3)
dekho ore bhāi, tri-bhuvane nāi,
emona doyāla dātā
paśu pākhī jhure, pāṣāṇa vidare,
śuni' jāńra guṇa-gāthā

(4)
saḿsāre majiyā, rohili poriyā,
se pade nahilo āśa
āpana karama, bhuñjāye śamana,
kahoye locana-dāsa

TRANSLATION

1) The two Lords, Nitai-Gauracandra, are very merciful. They are the essence of all incarnations. The specific significance of these incarnations is that They introduced a process of chanting and dancing that is simply joyful.

2) My dear brother, I request that you just worship Lord Caitanya and Nityananda with firm conviction and faith. If one wants to be Krsna conscious by this process, one has to give up his engagement in sense gratification. One simply has to chant, "Hare Krsna! Hari Hari!" without any motive.

3) My dear brother, just try and examine this. Within the three worlds there is no one like Lord Caitanya or Lord Nityananda. Their merciful qualities are so great that upon hearing Them even birds and beasts cry and stones melt.

4) But Locana dasa regrets that I am entrapped by sense gratification. Since I have no attraction for the lotus feet of Lord Caitanya and Lord Nityananda, then Yamaraja, the superintendent of death, is punishing me by not allowing me to be attracted by this movement.

PURPORTS:

By A.C. Bhaktivedanta Swami

Song Name: Gauranga Bolite Habe

(1)
'gaurāńga' bolite habe pulaka-śarīra
'hari hari' bolite nayane ba' be nīra

(2)
āra kabe nitāi-cānder koruṇā hoibe
saḿsāra-bāsanā mora kabe tuccha ha'be

(3)
viṣaya chāriyā kabe śuddha ha 'be mana
kabe hāma herabo śrī-bṛndābana

(4)
rūpa-raghunātha-pade hoibe ākuti
kabe hāma bujhabo se jugala-pīriti

(5)
rūpa-raghunātha-pade rahu mora āśa
prārthanā koroye sadā narottama-dāsa

TRANSLATION

1) When will that opportune moment come to us when there will be shivering of the body as soon as we chant Lord Gauranga's name? While chanting Hare Krsna, when will there be tears in the eyes?

2) When will I obtain the mercy of Lord Nityanandacandra? When, by His mercy will the desire for material enjoyment become very insignificant?

3) When the mind is completely purfied, being freed from material anxieties and desires, then I shall be able to understand Vrndavana and the conjugal love of Radha and Krsna, and then my spiritual life will be successful.

4) When shall I be very much eager to study the books left by the Six Gosvami's, headed by Srila Rupa Gosvami and Srila Raghunatha dasa Gosvami? By their instruction I shall be able to properly understand the loving affairs of Radha and Krsna.

5) My only aspiration is to attain the lotus feet of the Six Gosvamis headed by Srila Rupa Gosvami and Srila Raghunatha dasa Gosvami. Narottama dasa constantly prays to attain their lotus feet.

a dream...

Shrimat-pavo-nidhi-niketana chakra-pane

bhogindra-bhoga-mani-rajita punya-murte

yogisha shashvata sharanya bhavabdhi-pota

lakshmi-nrisimha mama dehi karavalambam

Lord, Your form is all beautiful because you are the master of the goddess of fortune. You reside in the ocean of milk, and You carry the Sudarshana disc in Your hand. Your all-auspicious form is made even more resplendent by the jewel-like body of Anantadeva, the king of serpents upon whom You rest. You are the eternal deliverer from the ocean of birth and death for all those who seek Your shelter and You are the master of all mystics. O Lakshmi-Nrisimha, please bless me with the touch of Your lotus hands. - Adi Shankaracharya

last night i saw a dream where i went to kamalaksa's place for the narasimha chaturdasi and when i entered there everyone were really sad looking.then i asked "why are you all so sad???"
then they answered "we are sad cause this year lord lakshmi-narasimhadeva didnt give us darshan!" then i checked out the altar and there was empty place between sri sri gaura-nitai...i tought why isnt lord lakshmi-narasimha with me?why did i forget him?

i think this dream was his way to inform me that i definetly have to go the narasimha chaturdasi fest and bring him with me so he can give darshan to the devotees!

lord lakshmi-narasimhadeva ki-JAY!!!

get a hit with the rhythm stick

im right now watching a documentary dvd of bob marley and he is singing "we'll be forever loving JAH!".while listening to it i just got a tear in my eye...
i wish that oneday i could sing to the lord without getting hit in the head by nityananda with his stick!!! i sometimes take out a songbook and sing to my dear sri sri gaura-nitai.i just dont have any rhythm or i cant remember the right tune...
one of my alltime favorite bhajans is SRI KRSNA CAITANYA PRABHU DOYA KORO MORE
it should be sang more...

"My dear Lord Nityananda, You are always joyful in spiritual bliss. Since You always appear very happy, I have come to You because I am most unhappy. If You kindly put Your glance over me, then I may also become happy."

rama rama rama

http://srimadbhagavatam.com/9/10/en1

nadhi-vyadhi-jara-glani-
duhkha-soka-bhaya-klamah
mrityus canicchatam nasid
rame rajany adhokshaje

When Lord Ramacandra, the Supreme Personality of Godhead,
was the King of this world,
all bodily and mental suffering, disease, old age, bereavement,
lamentation, distress, fear and fatigue were completely absent.
There was even no death for those who did not want it.

srila prabhupada's purport:
All these facilities existed because of Lord Ramacandra's
presence as the King of the entire world. A similar situation could be introduced
immediately, even in this age called Kali, the worst of all ages. It is said,
kali-kale nama-rupe krishna-avatara: Krishna descends in this
Kali-yuga in the form of His holy name -- Hare Krishna, Hare Rama.
If we chant offenselessly, Rama and Krishna are still present in this age.
The kingdom of Rama was immensely popular and beneficial,
and the spreading of this Hare Krishna movement can immediately
introduce a similar situation, even in this Kali-yuga.

gauranga mahaprabhu ki-JAY!!!!

SRI SACINANDANA-VANDANA by Srila B.R.Sridhar Maharaja
jay sacinandana sura-muni-vandana

bhava-bhaya-khandana jayo he
jay hari-kirttana narttana varttana
kalimala-karttana jayo he

All glories to Sri Krsna Chaitanya Mahaprabhu, the son of Sacidevi. Great sages and demigods always sing His praise, for by doing so, the fear of repeated birth and death is cut to pieces. All Glories to the kirttan of the Holy Name of Krsna, for when one chants the Holy Name of Krsna and dances in ecstasy, the filth of this iron age of Kali disappears.

nayana-purandara visvarupa snehadhara
visvambhara visvera kalyana
jay laksmi-visnupriya visvambhara priyahiya
jaya priya kinkara isana

Sri Chaitanya delights all eyes with His charming beauty. He is the most dearly beloved Lord of all and the intimate brother of Visvarupa. He brings the highest auspiciousness to everyone, for He floods the entire universe with the nectar of love of Godhead and thus saves all living beings. All glories to Laksmipriya and Visnupriya Devi, who are very dear to Sri Nimai Pandit. All glories to their family servant, Isana.

sri sita-advaita-ray malini-srivasa jay
jay candrasekhara acaryya
jay nityananda ray gadadhara jay jay
jaya haridasa namacaryya

All glories to Sita Thakurani and Sri Advaita Acharyya, all glories to Malini-devi and Srivasa Thakura, and all glories to Acharyya Chandrasekhara. All glories to Srila Nityananda Prabhu, Gadadhara Pandit and Haridasa Thakura, the Namacharyyas.

murari mukunda jay premanidhi mahasaya
jaya jata prabhu parisad
vandi savakara paya adhamere krpa hoy
bhakti saparsada-prabhupad

All glories to Murari Gupta, and all glories to Mukunda Datta. All glories to all the other eternal associates of Sri Chaitanya Mahaprabhu. By singing the glories of Srila Prabhupada all those great souls who are eternal associates of Sri Chaitanya Mahaprabhu, even the lowest of men can obtain the highest treasure of love.

rocky road out of this world....

gurudev! krpa-bindu diya, koro'ei dase, trnapekha ati hina sakala sahane, bala diya koro', nija-mane sprha-hina Gurudeva, give to this servant just one drop of mercy. I am lower than a blade of grass. Give me all help. Give me strength. Let me be as you are, without desires or aspirations.

i just came from little walk around the block with my dog.when i went out i put my mp3-player on and this nice bhajan started to play...i felt some tears in my eye.no it wasn't the freezing winter wind that was blowing onto my face.i think i just understood how happy we are at this age of kali that there are living persons that help us survive on the bumpy road back home...

radhe radhe my dear diary!

i've been really lazy on writing...sorry!
but here's a couple nice blogs that are pretty good(just click on the name):
Under Eternity Blue blog by Brajeshwara Prabhu
Imonk:Itinerant Monk blog by Sripad Bhakti Lalita Akinchan Maharaja

here the winter has arrived,some months late! :)
here uljas is enjoying over minus 20celcius,hard snow and winter sun!!! <3

jivera kalyana-sadhana-kam,
jagate asi' e madhura nam,
avidya-timira-tapana-rupe,
hrd-gagane biraje
To penetrate the darkness of ignorance and bless everyone's heart, the holy name has risen like the shining sun.

"The Vaisnavas are in My heart."

picture of my altar on my gurudevas vyasapuja day!

Vaisnave Vijnapti
Prayer to the Vaisnava
(from Prarthana)

1
ei-baro karuna koro vaisnava gosai
patita-pavana toma bine keho nai
2
jahara nikate gele papa dure jay
emona doyala prabhu keba kotha pay
3
gangara parasa hoile pascate pavan
darsana pavitra koro--ei tomara gun
4
hari-sthane aparadhe tare hari-nam
toma sthane aparadhe nahi paritran
5
tomara hrdoye sada govinda-visram
govinda kohena--mora vaisnava paran
6
prati-janme kori asa caranera dhuli
narottame koro doya apanara boli'
(1) 0 Vaisnava Gosvami, please be merciful to me now. There is no one except you who can purify the fallen souls.
(2) Where does anyone find such a merciful personality by whose mere audience all sins go far away?
(3) After bathing in the waters of the sacred Ganges many times, one becomes purified, but just by the sight of you, the fallen souls are purified. This is your great power.
(4) The holy name delivers one who has committed an offense to Lord Hari, but if one commits an offense to you, there is no means of deliverance.
(5) Your heart is always the resting place of Lord Govinda, and Lord Govinda says, "The Vaisnavas are in My heart."
(6) I desire the dust of your holy feet in every birth I may take. Please consider Narottama yours, and be kind upon him.