krishna works in mysterious ways....

i left from work and allready listening to one of my favorite cd's vaiyasaki das:way of love.wich starts with this:
gopinath, mama nivedana suno
visayi durjana, sada kama-rata,
kichu nahi mora guna
O Gopinatha, Lord of the gopis, please hear my request. I am a wicked materialist, always addicted to worldly desires, and no good qualities do I possess.
as i walked and listened to the song singing to it...i started to i should take out my japamala wich i have with me in my bag...i heard a familiar sound shouting:"X,X,hey X!!!" and instantly i knew that its an old devotee from the local(iskcon)temple.before we started talking next song started at my cd-player(yes i dont own a IPOD)and i starts like this:"i am not able to get the darshan of lord nityananda or lord caytanya,o fickle mind,even though i decorate my entire body with holy tilak" we started talking about how things are,then to how gaura purnima festival went at the temple.we talked lots about how it is so hard for us finnish people to understand the importance of just helping out others,like at the festivals just peel some potatoes,rather then to just wait for the prasadam to appear infront of us.then we talked how it is so hard to get all this dirt away so we can get krsna into our hearts and not just think about all the material things...song continues in my other ear:"before you worship lord caitanya with loving dedication,the mind must be pure." we talked how people in india are born with god conciouness and how humble they are compared to us cold finnish people.he said that when he was india people saw his orange clothes and wanted him to come to their houses to take darshan of their deity and take some prasadam...and then came the big question to me:"you should come to temple and take the darshan of the deitys and visit us?!?" and i said that:"but im not really wanted there!?" i saw an open mouth...then i explained what had happened...after while he said to me:"no one should be banned from taking darshan of deitys!"he and i understood that there might be some philosophical differences etc.but still to get the darshan is the most important thing!rather than some politics.(i had to bite my lip so i wouldnt shed any tears,i just felt good talking,i just felt my heart melting...)we talked lots about just judging people before even talking to them face to face.we talked about prabhupada.we talked about lord caitanya that he didnt care what kinda people came to see him,he gave them darshan and chance to sing the holyname...in all we standed in freezing cold infront of mcdonalds talking about krsna for half an hour before our ways parted...he said that he will come to visit me at my work.i've known this devotee since the first days that i entered the temple...
last sentence of NITAI MILE NA: "our merciful nityananda resides in the home of that person who adores eternal devotional activities.one's devotional service increases after crying out for his mercy,and one's sadhana becomes completely successful"
i dont know if i ever get the darshan of sri sri gaura-nitai at the temple but this little talk just made me feel lot better...i think that there still is some heart in human beings,even though we are not all the same!

ps.i remember when i yesterday opened my altars door and in the middle of sri sri gaura nitai is the picture of the temple's gaura-nitai...i remember thinking how they look at the festivals all garlanded and happy...by meeting this devotee today i got the darshan of them into my heart.

GOPINATH - by sri bhaktivinoda thakura
1) O Gopinatha, Lord of the gopis, please hear my request. I am a wicked materialist, always addicted to worldly desires, and no good qualities do I possess.
2) 0 Gopinatha, You are my only hope, and therefore I have taken shelter at Your lotus feet. I am now Your eternal servant.
3) 0 Gopinatha, how will You purify me? I do not know what devotion is, and my materialistic mind is absorbed in fruitive work. I have fallen into this dark and perilous worldly existence.
4) 0 Gopinatha, everything here is Your illusory energy. I have no strength or transcendental knowledge, and this body of mine is not independent and free from the control of material nature.
5) 0 Gopinatha, this sinner, who is weeping and weeping, begs for an eternal place at Your divine feet. Please give him Your mercy.
6) 0 Gopinatha, You are able to do anything, and therefore You have the power to deliver all sinners. Who is there that is more of a sinner than myself?
7) 0 Gopinatha, You are the ocean of mercy. Having come into this phenomenal world, You expand Your divine pastimes for the sake of the fallen souls.
8) 0 Gopinatha, I am so sinful that although all the demons attained Your lotus feet, Bhaktivinoda has remained in worldly existence.